OK I fucked up! I tried to be super wife. Today I am frustrated beyond belief. My right eye keeps twitching, it feel like every thing in my pelvic region is being twisted-expanded-ripped apart, my arms and legs feel like they contain rocks, my head is pounding and stabbing, my vitamins gave me heartburn this morning. My youngest came down with a stomach virus and I believe I have it. It caused extreme abdominal pain in him ofr almost two weeks. yea I have that on top of the biopsies.

I just want to be a contributing member of my household, community… life! I ran across a woman that has FMF and is able to keep a job doing medical transcription. I have written her back 6 times but it all sounds like babble. I know I have a lot of brain fog and probably some swelling in there because i keep crying, getting frustrated, going blank and just cant think to put things into flowing words. Like this post. I am publishing it no matter how it reads.

ok lets break it down to my gratitude… had enough negative so far. Johnathan is getting better. ten days with a stomach virus and he is getting back to being spunky john again. Mike is doing amazing in school. He is just an amazing little man. I have way to much stuff in my house to clean up… that's a positive cause I have too much and can pass on my abundant blessings with others.